Aiyor, I haven't been blogging for SOO long. *Blows away dust*
Well, Today is the last day of 2010. *speechless*
I don't know what to say. This year has been quite tough. SPM and all. Church is bad. He is bad -.-
So I pray for better years to come. Go to anywhere but Kuantan. Future is abit blur~ Though I got the scholarship I have always praed for, but dad says it must be 100% tuition fee waiver. If not, I can't take it. That's just pathetically pathetic. It is God's blessing to even get a scholarship but dad is expecting a full scholarship =[
Well, keep praying and have faith in the Lord. That's all I can do.
Uncle gave a digital camera (DC) and I'm announcing it as mine. Well, it's a very old model but it's better than nothing raite? Raite.
2011 is a year of fulfillment of my dreams, a year where dreams come true. Including getting myself a DSLR with my own pay. Means I earn myself to get a DSLR. Now I got the DC, sounds like God is saying: 'You're not getting your DSLR next year so the DC is a temporary replacement. '
LOL. I hope that's my imagination run wild. God won't say that, raite? raite? raite?
I'm gonna cut my hair later. New hair for a new year. owh yeah! No regrets :DD
Anxiety and frustrations. But this is a chance for me to learn to trust in the Lord more.
Peace! ^_^ V
I dare you to click xD
Friday, December 31, 2010
Thursday, December 9, 2010
可是我喜欢他
两个礼拜前
我遇见了他
他对着我
笑了
非常非常灿烂的
微笑
我顿时愣着了
不知道要怎么做
对他微笑吗?
还是掉头就走?
我
脸红了
走吧~
我走来走去
不知道要干吗
他
却一直在注意着我
他叫我了
叫我参加一个义工社团
他说, 要接触明星就要参加
参加就参加咯
我填了表格
把需要的资料都给了
他看到我的名
就问: “你的名是茉莉花吗?
原来你是茉莉花! 原来你是茉莉花!”
我翻了个白眼想:
“真没常识!”
临走前,
他还附加了一个灿烂的微笑
他给我的第一印象
非常好
而且他还蛮好看
晚上
他利用我的资料
传短信给我
“茉莉花! 茉莉花! 茉莉花! 茉莉花…小姐! 要接触明星是不难的”
虽然他乱用我报名的资料
但我一点也不介意
心里还有一丝的欢喜
跟他相处了一段时间
我发现我越来越喜欢他
我间接式问他对我的感觉
他否认了
明明就喜欢
就是不肯认
可是我喜欢他
他的英文
烂到爆
简单的英文
听不明
简单的英文
讲不出
我一生中教过多少个人英文?
竟然喜欢一个不会听不会讲英文的家伙?!
可是我喜欢他
工作的他
过几个小时才会回一封信
天天等到傻了
都一定要等到
他根本就没空理我
可是我喜欢他
认识几天就被伤几次了
常被欺负
因为喜欢,所以在乎
可是我喜欢他
慢慢的
盲目的我发现了
原来我并没有很喜欢他
原来我只是想
想要有人陪
想被爱
想被疼
我接收了我应该放弃他
我跟他“分手”了
虽然不曾发生过
可是
他不舍
他打电话给我
我们谈了差不多一个小时
那时我真的决定了
他,不是我的
可是他喜欢我
他会主动找我
主动约我出去
虽然他不承认
可是他骗不了我
因为,
他喜欢我! ;)
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Tuesday, November 16, 2010
Last 2 days...
Last Saturday (13/11/10) and yesterday (15/11/10) were the last 2 days of my high school life. Saturday was the End of The Year Party and yesterday was just a normal school day but with Pn. Tan See Lee's retirement 'celebration'.
Saturday was fun. Practically the best day of my high school life? May be...
A lot happened this year. Somehow it felt better without the presence of AYe. I was free. Not so self-conscious.
I managed to mend a broken friendship this year. I didn't know what happened but we stopped talking since form3. Well, we talked on Facebook, texted and all but we just don't have the initiative to start talking to each other face to face at school. Urgh~ I hate this -.-
I had another broken friendship this year. We were friends for quite sometime. It happens right. Argument and all. I wouldn't say it's all my fault or all her fault but both of us were at blame.
I tend to be an initiative person most of the time, but at times I get tired with the fact in my brain knowing that: " I have to talk to you first".
So boring. Can't you talk to me first?! =[[[[
For this ex-friend ( I don't count her as my friend anymore), we are not talking. There's no need to talk, neither do I want to talk to her. I don't even wanna hear her voice. Freakishly annoying. I guess it's mainly my fault. I might still hold grudges, which I shouldn't. As a Christian, that's just not right. For a person that was so close to us before, it just seemed a bit too hard.
I pray all the time asking God to help me to forgive her and to love her as Jesus wants us to. But it's not easy. Especially I have to see her in school.. Imagine the happiness I felt whenever she's absent and I'm not ^_^
Worse still, I sit behind her during every exam this year. Including SPM. Sigh. It's okie. I woun't have to hear her voice because we're not supposed to talk. Phew~
Back to happy stuff. The party was just fun! Taking pictures with most of my buddies with a camera that doesn't belong to me (sigh)
And Jie Wen, we were close but again we stopped talking. Much awkwardness but now, we seem to be quite good already! Yay!
Saturday was fun. Practically the best day of my high school life? May be...
A lot happened this year. Somehow it felt better without the presence of AYe. I was free. Not so self-conscious.
I managed to mend a broken friendship this year. I didn't know what happened but we stopped talking since form3. Well, we talked on Facebook, texted and all but we just don't have the initiative to start talking to each other face to face at school. Urgh~ I hate this -.-
I had another broken friendship this year. We were friends for quite sometime. It happens right. Argument and all. I wouldn't say it's all my fault or all her fault but both of us were at blame.
I tend to be an initiative person most of the time, but at times I get tired with the fact in my brain knowing that: " I have to talk to you first".
So boring. Can't you talk to me first?! =[[[[
For this ex-friend ( I don't count her as my friend anymore), we are not talking. There's no need to talk, neither do I want to talk to her. I don't even wanna hear her voice. Freakishly annoying. I guess it's mainly my fault. I might still hold grudges, which I shouldn't. As a Christian, that's just not right. For a person that was so close to us before, it just seemed a bit too hard.
I pray all the time asking God to help me to forgive her and to love her as Jesus wants us to. But it's not easy. Especially I have to see her in school.. Imagine the happiness I felt whenever she's absent and I'm not ^_^
Worse still, I sit behind her during every exam this year. Including SPM. Sigh. It's okie. I woun't have to hear her voice because we're not supposed to talk. Phew~
Back to happy stuff. The party was just fun! Taking pictures with most of my buddies with a camera that doesn't belong to me (sigh)
And Jie Wen, we were close but again we stopped talking. Much awkwardness but now, we seem to be quite good already! Yay!
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Friday, October 29, 2010
Good photography :D
Saw this link on facebook. After reading it, I thought it was really good!
http://thephotoletariat.com/good-photography-is-not-about-the-gear-its-about-the-story/
I wonder whether he's trying to say that iphone is good or just using the ''not-so-real camera'' is good. Don't know what I'm saying? Read that post I linked laaa~
No shame for most of my pictures are taken with my phone. Only. Owh and not to forget: Photoshop xD
So I'm gonna share a few good photographers here and their pictures. well, they all use the 'Real camera' though ._.
http://thephotoletariat.com/good-photography-is-not-about-the-gear-its-about-the-story/
I wonder whether he's trying to say that iphone is good or just using the ''not-so-real camera'' is good. Don't know what I'm saying? Read that post I linked laaa~
No shame for most of my pictures are taken with my phone. Only. Owh and not to forget: Photoshop xD
So I'm gonna share a few good photographers here and their pictures. well, they all use the 'Real camera' though ._.
This is a shot by Nyen Chin. Weird name. He's a Christian. he told me -.-
Mostly landscape shots in US.
Steve's. His studio's grand opening was just 2 weeks ago :D
Komi. Most beautiful model I have seen.
By Steve too.
Of course, Calvin.
Komi again. This is by Eddy Ng.
Michael Chong's. Jonathan's father.
i thought he's better in landscape instead of potrait D:
Komi again. By Tiger Lee.
just found this talented guy yesterday. Jeremy Song :D
Almost forgot =P
Jonathan Chong!!
That's not all but that's all for now.
Tuesday, October 19, 2010
Untitled.
It had been long. Well, a lot of things happened.
Trial was over. Now having the second 'wave' of trials.
Gonna waste 2 weeks because of that. I heard that SPM is in less than 1 month time.
Crap. I'm scared. T_T
Trial was over. Now having the second 'wave' of trials.
Gonna waste 2 weeks because of that. I heard that SPM is in less than 1 month time.
Crap. I'm scared. T_T
Thursday, October 7, 2010
:)
After so long, yes I'm gonna blog again. Just one post. Or may be two. I don't really think anyone's reading it but I'm telling myself that you care ;)
So, the real SPM trials are over and now preparing for Pra-SPM which is the fake trials. Well I don't see the point for it takes up another 2 weeks which means we have 2 weeks less to study. If we're studying >_<
YES I AM studying! xD
No news from the JPJ so I'm not having much hope that the schedule of SPM will be amended. Which means I might not be going for ACTS Teens camp this year. =(((((((
There's one thing that's bothering me a lot this 3 days. I can't even recall what's velocity and momentum. If I have ever known what are they =P
YES I DO know! xD
It's not a 'he' but a 'she' which is weird. People who heard my so-called 'problem' will ask either 'Are you a lesbian?' or 'Is she a lesbian?'
-.- NOOOOOO!!! Can't girls have super best friends?!?! But she's not my super best friend. I'd kill myself +_+
She's just bothering. I'm so fed-up but I can't give up on her since I made a promise. Stupid!
Get lost laar~ I need to study for SPM xP
-wink-
So, the real SPM trials are over and now preparing for Pra-SPM which is the fake trials. Well I don't see the point for it takes up another 2 weeks which means we have 2 weeks less to study. If we're studying >_<
YES I AM studying! xD
No news from the JPJ so I'm not having much hope that the schedule of SPM will be amended. Which means I might not be going for ACTS Teens camp this year. =(((((((
There's one thing that's bothering me a lot this 3 days. I can't even recall what's velocity and momentum. If I have ever known what are they =P
YES I DO know! xD
It's not a 'he' but a 'she' which is weird. People who heard my so-called 'problem' will ask either 'Are you a lesbian?' or 'Is she a lesbian?'
-.- NOOOOOO!!! Can't girls have super best friends?!?! But she's not my super best friend. I'd kill myself +_+
She's just bothering. I'm so fed-up but I can't give up on her since I made a promise. Stupid!
Get lost laar~ I need to study for SPM xP
-wink-
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Friday, September 17, 2010
Sunday, August 29, 2010
Dear John the movie
I watched this show this afternoon. I got the DVD from my uncle. I mean he gave it to me. I have some other shows but I thought I needed a boost of love in this loneliness at this moment of my life.
I thought it was quite old because I got it from him quite long ago. It shows that it was released this year. Not that old though :)
It was quite nice. But I didn't like Amanda. I'd prefer someone prettier =X
Channing Tatum is kinda hot xD
I got this from Wikipedia. It's very long and detailed. Couldn't bother much to edit ;P
John Tyree (Channing Tatum), a young Sergeant from the Army Special Forces, is lying on the ground in his combat gear with multiple gunshot wounds on his body. Coins begin to fall over him as he recalls a childhood trip to the U.S. Mint.
He goes on to compare himself to a coin in the United States Military and states that the last thing he thought about before he blacked out, was "You."
In 2001, John is on leave when he meets Savannah Lynn Curtis (Amanda Seyfried), a college student on spring break. In a matter of days, Savannah and John fall in love. John meets Savannah's family as well as her neighbor, Tim Wheddon (Henry Thomas) and Tim's autistic son, Alan (Braeden Reed), who looks up to Savannah.
Savannah meets and befriends John's father (Richard Jenkins), a reclusive man who is only interested in his coin collection. John tells Savannah that his father has always been obsessed with coins and has not been much of a father to John, whose mother is not in the picture. Savannah mentions to John that his father, like Alan, may have autism.
This upsets John, who believes Savannah is calling his father retarded. He is so caught up in his anger that he gets into a fight with Savannah's rich neighbor, Randy (Scott Porter), accidentally punching Tim in the process. John apologizes to Tim the next day and leaves Savannah a note, seeking her forgiveness before his leave comes to an end.
Savannah gets the note, and they spend one last day together. John returns to the Army and he and Savannah begin a long-distance relationship through handwritten letters. John believes this year will be his final year of enlistment but, following the September 11 attacks, is torn between returning home and his sense of duty.
He is given a weekend off, which he spends with Savannah and her family as well as with his father. He asks Savannah for her opinion on whether or not he should re-enlist, and she tells him to do what he feels is right. Like the rest of the soldiers in his unit, John chooses to re-enlist.
Over the next two years, John faces dangerous missions and begins to live almost entirely for Savannah's letters. John and Savannah find themselves drifting apart. Finally, Savannah, sad but resigned, sends John a Dear John letter, informing him that she has become engaged to someone else.
John, deeply depressed and frustrated by the news, believes she is engaged to Randy. On a mission, he enters a dangerous area and is shot several times by an enemy, which bridges back to the first scene of the movie.
After recovering from his wounds John's Captain suggests that he go home and spend time with his father but, still upset about Savannah, John chooses to re-enlist again. He decides that he will make a career out of the Army and stay enlisted for as long as possible.
For the next four years, John, trying to mend his broken heart over Savannah, takes part in many missions with his new unit, spanning from the early years of the invasion of Iraq to the current resurgent conflicts in Afghanistan.
While waiting to receive orders on his unit's next deployment at their regional operations base in Qatar, John is informed that he is being sent home for the first time in six years, because his father is dying. When John arrives at the hospital, the doctor informs him that his father suffered a severe stroke and was not found until days later.
John feels guilt that if he had been there, the outcome for his father would have been better. The doctor assures him that his presence and quicker medical attention would have done little to help his father due to the severity of the stroke. John spends the last few days of his father's life by his side and writes him a letter.
His father has difficulty opening it, so John reads it to him. It is then that the viewers find out that John's speech at the beginning of the film addressed his father, not Savannah. He tells the story of the first mule coin that he found and how it brought father and son to a shared passion of coin collecting. They connect in a tearful moment, and his father dies soon thereafter.
John goes to see Savannah. He discovers that she married Tim, not her rich friend. Savannah tells him Tim has cancer and is not allowed to leave the hospital. She says that the only way he can come home is by having an experimental drug that they cannot afford. John visits Tim in the hospital, where Tim apologizes to John.
He confesses that he has always loved Savannah and that he is happy because his son Alan will always have someone to care for him. Tim also admits that Savannah still loves John. While he wishes that she loved him the same way, he accepts what can never be.
Late that evening, after reconnecting with Savannah, John finally says goodbye to her, forcing Savannah to acknowledge that she has lost John, bringing her to tears.
John sells his father's coin collection, though he keeps the very first mule coin that was the key element to their bond when he was a boy. He anonymously donates the money from the sale to finance Tim's drug. The next scene shows John back with his unit, using the mule coin in a coin toss with his fellow soldiers. John then gets an unexpected letter from Savannah.
She writes about how she received an anonymous donation to help Tim with his treatment to buy him time to say goodbye and thanks him for doing so. Tim died after two months. She expresses that she still wonders where John is and what he is going through, but she accepts that she lost the right to know a long time ago.
Moved by Savannah's letter, John gets a new lease on life and decides to leave the Army after his current tour. In the last scene of the film, John walks a bicycle down a block in an American town and stops to chain it up. At that moment, Savannah in a nearby cafe turns to spot him. John turns, and they lock eyes through the cafe's glass window. Savannah exits the cafe, and they embrace with passion.
I hope the ending'd be better than this...
Tuesday, August 17, 2010
Retreat?
I don't really grasp the meaning of retreat. I always thought it was a time to get out of the house for at least one day and have lotsa fun. But it seems that retreat has to a time of silence too...
The front view of the reception of the resort.
[Photo by: Alfred C.]
We took sometime to visit the place and it's not that bad.
Despite it's distance to get from places to places =.=
[Photo by: Alfred C.]
All we can see around the resort are flowers...
[Photo by: Ben'JazZ xD]
and trees...
[Photo by: Ben'JazZ xD]
and not to forgot: Fruits!
[Photo by: Alfred C.]
Thank God chalets existed. But they're far from the conference room too =[
My Chalet: C3!
[Photo by: Alfred C.]
Then we saw this unique creation of God.
It has a few layers of skin and each skin has different colors.
Wow!
[Photo by: Alfred C.]
And of course. We got to play. In the beginning,
we were just going up and down the see-saw.
[Photo by: Alfred C.]
P/S: Chien Li the poser! xD
[Photo by: Alfred C.]
Then, I screamed my way down and they decided to try balancing the see-saw.
[Photo by: Ben'JazZ xD]
Which worked. For 1 second may be? =P
[Photo by: Ben'JazZ xD]
Chien Li was still posing!
Then, we proceeded to experience flying fox.
The mosquitoes were so annoying!
[Photo by: Susie P.]
No pictures of us doing flying fox though =[
What could/did we do at night?
[Photo by: Alfred C.]
Barbecue of course!
[Photo by: Ben'JazZ xD]
The dark wasn't something to stop us from snapping pictures!
Next stop?? Chien Li's chalet! C4!
[Photo by: Ben'JazZ xD]
[Photo by: Ben'JazZ xD]
Card games!
[Photo by: Ben'JazZ xD]
I don't know how. Adrian and Wilfred started fighting.
Though there's an age gap, but they looked almost the same size! >__<
[Photo by: Daniel F.]
Both of them seemed to enjoy the fight though.
Gotta act crazy sometimes xD
[Photo by: Ben'JazZ xD]
Next morning! Sunday service.
Worship was well and this! Retreat's worship team!
Then, we had fruit tasting "session". LOL
We went home. Last dinner together.
Before.
[Photo by: Daniel F.]
After.
[Photo by: Daniel F.]
Bye bye! come again next year! >__<
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