23rd December...

Happy birthday to my sister, Charleen & Hendriq!!!

For the 1st time in my whole entire life, I treated Charleen & Joshua a movie. Since he helped me to go up and down to check the movie for me, and we said we wanna watch it together. So, whatever it takes. I'm taking the whatever risk without acknowledging the circumstances.

It was a bit hard, not really used to the distance between both of us, but I think we did quite well eh =X

[Ask me how! Ask me how! >.< ]

The movie was fine. Just nice. Satisfied my wanting to watch this show. Now? Alisson & the gang are watching Alvin & the Chipmunks II. Nope, I'm not invited because THEY THOUGHT that I was WORKING! =__=

Apologies accepted. Dear, we watch it together eh? :P

::In a Christmas mood =D ::

BHS

Just read Ivan's blog. This is what I call SWEET.

No, I'm not comparing...

baCK

I just came back from camps and I've been working for the past 6days without rest. Thank God for today that I'm off.

[Don't wanna go out with Svinina already! :'( ]

At work place, terrible. Mainly because of the PIC(Person-In-Charge). She has terribly bad temper. Very terribly sarcastic. The way she talks. Very forceful. As in forcing people to do things. She can't make people do things wilingly. How I wish the 2nd PIC is the main PIC. Then I don't have to suffer so much.

Another part-timer is worse. I don't know what kind of relationship she has with the main PIC. Definitely not simple. I heard her family even came to the shop to scold the main PIC. Now, she told her parents she went down to KL (she studies in KL) but she's actually staying at the store room of the shop. And the main PIC is always in the store room. I wonder what they do inside there. I wonder how she wash up, how she sleeps in that small room full of dust and stock. Maybe some unknown creatures in there too... It's creeping me out. Whatever laar~ it's non of my business anyway.

29th of December shall be my last day of work.

(I hope)

{Get well soon, dear! xD }

J

"J people are nice, but, sadly, there are exceptions...''

                                                         ----Jasmine Tai 

I'm back from both ACTS teens camp and YLDP. Lots of thoughts appeared & lost their way in my mind. I started to miss someone, and stopped missing. I started liking someone else, and stopped liking someone else. It's all infatuation. I don't even know whether I did the right thing in the 1st place. May be it's due to the heat of the moment only.

I don't know....

-3 months-

camps~

Holidays are boring. Especially when I'm working. But not anymore when it's the annual camp time!!! This year, I'm blessed with 2 camps that I'm joining. 1st camp is Acts Teen Revolution Camp 2009:: The New Normal as shown below.

It's gonna be soooo fun!

2nd camp is of course Youth Leadership Development Programme. My 3rd year of joining. I'm looking forward to more exciting experiences and meeting old & new friends. Won't be online for quite sometime. Do miss me!

Ciao~

Huge~

Just for you, Enwei!!! xDD

I'm so bored...

I'm VERY bored.
Jonathan, you're right. We stay in the same small place. No need to sms everyday.

WARNING!!!

Benjamin: Jazz is having mood swing again. Stay away from her until she's fine.

Twilight saga: New Moon

I watched Twilight about a year ago. With Kev.
This year, I watched New Moon on the very 1st day it's showing in the cinema. With him.
yes! It was kinda nice. Alisson, I agree with you! Jacob is SOOOOO HOOOTTTT!!!
Edward? forget about him laar~ =P

happy belated birthday! =D

27th of November.Joshua, Jing Wen & Alithea share the same day of birthday!!!

 Happy belated birthday!!!

This is a very cute German Shepherd pup!

I baked this cake for him. Yes, a birthday present.

It's time for Christmas!!! xD

This picture was edited by Jing Wen. Happy birthday!!!

-Hugs & Kisses-

-Ben'JazZ xD-

What's "butt dust"?

Got this from 

http://andyyeoh.blogspot.com/

 

What is “Butt Dust”?

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What, you ask, is ‘Butt dust’? Read on and you’ll discover the joy in it! These have to be original and genuine. Adults are not this creative!!
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JACK (age 3) was watching his mom breast feed his baby sister. After awhile he asked “Mom why have you got two? Is one for hot and one for cold milk?”
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MELANIE-age five asked her granny how old she was, granny replied im so old that I have forgotten exactly. melanie
replied “granny do what I do look in the back of your panties mine says 5-6″
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STEVEN (age 3) hugged and kissed his Mom good night. ‘I love you so much that when you die I’m going to bury you outside my bedroom window..’
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BRITTANY (age 4) had an ear ache and wanted a pain killer. She tried in vain to take the lid off the bottle. Seeing her
frustration, her Mom explained it was a child-proof cap and she’d have to open it for her. Eyes wide with wonder,
the little girl asked: ‘How does it know it’s me?’
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DJ (age 4) stepped onto the bathroom scale and asked: ‘How much do I cost?’
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CLINTON (age 5) was in his bedroom looking worried when his Mom asked what was troubling him. He replied, ‘I don’t know what’ll happen with this bed when I get married. How will my wife fit in it?’
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MARC (age 4) was engrossed in a young couple that were hugging and kissing in a restaurant. Without taking his eyes off them, he asked his dad: ‘Why is he whispering in her mouth?’
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TAMMY (age 4) was with her mother when they met an elderly, rather wrinkled woman her Mom knew. Tammy looked at her for a while and then asked, ‘Why doesn’t your skin fit your face?’
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JAMES (age 4) was listening to a Bible story. His dad read: ‘The man named Lot was warned to take his wife and flee out of the city but his wife looked back and was turned to salt.’ Concerned, James asked: ‘What happened to the flea?’
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The Sermon I think this Mom will never forget
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This particular Sunday sermon…’Dear Lord,’ the minister began, with arms extended toward heaven and a rapturous look on his upturned face. ‘Without you, we are but dust…’ He would have continued but at that moment my very obedient daughter who was listening leaned over to me and asked quite audibly in her shrill little four year old girl voice, ‘Mom, what is butt dust?’

badges~

RM4 for one! RM10 for ten! Sorry, sale was ended. wanna buy now? RM40 for ten! >__<

Sometimes, it appears sweet and charming. But, sometimes, it's hard too...

1st time again...

After 13th of November 2009, such a memorable day, I have lotsa [1st-times].

To celebrate his birthday, I'm requested to bake a cake for him since my mum bakes.
I tried to bake cheese cake yesterday, and it turned out quite well. Though the process was abit..... erm...

Today, I tried it. It was nice! can be compared with my mum's cheese cake already. Haha! xDD
All the best for my 2nd try!

Pure nuisance

Some people are just pure nuisance. I don't know why they hate other people for no practically no obvious reason. They just like people that are so-called have standard. As if they themselves have standard. Yeah, in their own world...
Though I really wanna spend time with him, but with people that don't welcome me at all, people that don't know me well, with people that I can't be DFA in front of, I'd rather go to my church, hang out with the MYFers.

Yes, I do. More than 7 seconds ya...

Gosh! God is super good to me today!!! XDDDDDDDDDD

bye~

Almost 1 year in Malaysia, she's leaving soon. [At last she's going back, leaving this horribly hot country! >__<]
Thank God I went to school on her last day at school. Will her miss her not.
Bye bye Aoi Ishiguro! xDD

No big DEAL!!!

I am like this. How?

There's no big deal =__=

Accept me for who I am.

summary of...

Someone planned a surprise belated birthday party for Melissa. I don't know how surprise she was because I joined them a bit later. Okie, much later >__< because I was eating brunch with Enwei & Alisson. They played bowling after that. A game that I can't play according to Andrew Kok because of my nails =__=

Happy belated birthday [again], Mels!!!

On Sunday, I got myself a new teddy! It's name shall be Benny. Don't ask why =P
So hugable. I hugged it all night when I slept. It reminded me of someone though =X

I'm a crew in Quiksilver oaka Roxy!
Sudden realizations:
1. People [ Girls ] always come with their partners [Boyfriends].
2. People [ Boys ] always accompany their partners [Girlfriends] when they shop.
3. People [ Girls ] always ask their partners [Boyfriends] whether something suits them [ Girls ] or not. I wonder who's paying actually.
4. People [ Boys ] will always hold their partners' [Girlfriends] hands even though they [ Girls ] let go when choosing clothes. Something to ponder about...

I went back to sleep after deciding to ditch school. Before that, I dreamt of AYe. When I dream about someone specifically and that I remember that dream, it means that i really miss that person. Very much.

Although I didn't miss her recently, but suddenly realized that I actually miss her a lot.

After going back to sleep, the dream about her continued. Her face, her smile, her expressions & stuff. Really like it's real. Even in the dream, we argued, got angry with each other, quarrel in texts.... I just miss the time we had together...

2.0.1.2.

I went for this movie with Cheryl, Doreen, Wilson & another girl at ECM. 1st time watching movie at the new cinema at ECM. I thought I wouldn't watch this show 'cause I thought it was violent. Even Alisson asked me, I was like....... see first!

Haha sorry =P

Since Cheryl asked me, so I went. The cinema wasn't as cold as I thought it would be. Thank God~~

Before that, we went & took the aka [Big Head Sticker]. Direct translation from Chinese. It's still with Cheryl so that post it yet...

Fun time!

Stupid!!!

I can't believe this!
If I'd make the first step to approach her
I'd appear in those pictures
I'd have so much fun. Again. With her!
I wasted this chance.
What I got was just : Oo
I'm sooo stupid!!! T^T

I don't know...

I know it's not gonna be easy. But at least I tried. It was hard before school today. It was at school today. It's harder now back home. Can I not miss you so much?
I'd wanna try...

Mel's sweet 16~

The picture says it all. Happy birthday!!!

Yes.No.

Yes, I started working.
No, I went to school today.
Yes, I wasted my day.
No, I didn't grab the chance that was in front of me.
Yes, I went out with him aka them.
No, I don't know what to do.
Yes, ECM is very cold.
No, I don't like it.
Yes, I wish the air-cond will be spoilt someday.
No, I won't complain about the heat.
Yes, I'm full.
No, I don't really complain much.
Yes, I'm just sharing.
No, I don't care.
Yes, I was almost single again.
No, I'm not available.


Gaahhhh... I'm so lazy to blog ==

Nice!

After much hesitations and thoughts, yes!

I've bought these hotcakes for my breakfast today! Whee~~ xDD

Tastes sweet, smells sweet. Awesome!!!

I'm hired!

Thank God, I'm hired.

The highest pay I can find at ECM.

Start working next Monday.

Not going to school already.

Bye bye Svinina.

I like it!

That's The Way I Loved You--Taylor Swift

He is sensible and so incredible
And all my single friends are jealous
He says everything I need to hear and it's like
I couldn't ask for anything better

He opens up my door and I get into his car
And he says, you look beautiful tonight
And I feel perfectly fine

But I've been screamin' and fightin'
And kissin' in the rain
And it's two a.m. and I'm cursin' your name
You're so in love that you act insane
And that's the way I loved you

Breakin' down and comin' undone
It's a roller-coaster kinda rush
And I never knew I could feel that much
And that's the way I loved you

He respects my space and never makes me wait
And he calls exactly when he says he will
He's close to my mother
Talks business with my father
He's charming and endearing, and I'm comfortable

But I've been screamin' and fightin'
And kissin' in the rain
And it's two a.m. and I'm cursin' your name
You're so in love that you act insane
And that's the way I loved you

Breakin' down and comin' undone
It's a roller-coaster kinda rush
And I never knew I could feel that much
And that's the way I loved you

He can't see the smile I'm fakin'
And my heart's not breakin'
'Cause I'm not feelin' anything at all

And you were wild and crazy
Just so frustrating, intoxicating, complicated
Got away by some mistake and now

I'll be screamin' and fightin'
And kissin' in the rain
It's two a.m. and I'm cursin' your name
I'm so in love that I acted insane
And that's the way I loved you

Breakin' down and comin' undone
It's a roller-coaster kinda rush
And I never knew I could feel that much
And that's the way I loved you

And that's the way I loved you
I never knew I could feel that much
And that's the way I loved you

I like the flower~

I've been asked quite a few times:
" You really like him arh?"
"Why do you like him?"
"Is he perfect?"

For the first question: Yes! I really like him.
For the second question: I don't know. I hope I'll never know.
For the third question: No he's not. Because 2 imperfect people make 1 perfect couple. =))

Random day out...

Funny thing. Susu asked me to teach her form 4 Physics & Chemistry. Both subjects that I'm not good in. And she's form 5.
While waiting for her, which I knew she'd be late. This is...

Photographer of the day!
^__^

People are just full of hatred.
I also don't know why.

I went back to Mcdonald. I sat facing the ice-cream station.
So tempting. But in the end I got a vanilla ice-cream too!

Not bad~ quite fun hanging out with her.
She asked me about Svinina.
How caring of her =P

Shouts!!!

I screwed my add-maths paper!
My mum is suspicious!
Screams!!!

One of those days...

I was organizing my photos in Friendster and realized something: Friendster sucks badly.
And found all those pictures I once have taken and uploaded. Memories are back...
But I still miss Svinina =X

This was taken during Jessel & Chiew Tze's wedding dinner.
Alisson, Wilfred and I.
That time she still had her long hair and my short hair.
How nice...

This was my first time taking photo with Jonathan with my long hair~
I think it was when I was form2.
How much we have changed...

This was taken when I was form 2 after straightening my hair.
Now, she [Harn Jun] changed a lot.

The Holy Spirit~

Quoted from Pastor Sandra Chin (ACTS Church):
[The Holy Spirit] He is our helper,our guide. He is the power in our lives. And what men cannot fulfill, God by His Holy Spirit does that for you. The Holy Spirit knows how you feel, He helps you pray, He quickens your spirit to know. To turn to the left or to the right. To be silent or to speak up. But we must build the relationship with the Holy Spirit. We can't just speak about Him and put Him aside. But we have to build that relationship with Him everyday, recognizing Him in my life.

Quoted from Pastor Mark Brand (US):
How the Holy Spirit helps us?
1. Be things that we need to be, that we could not be without His help.
[eg: Patient, loving, gentle,kind etc.]
2.To know things that we do not know, that we cannot know without His help.
3.To say things that we need to say and cannot say without His help.
4.To do things that we need to do and cannot do without His help.

......................................................................................
You appeared beside me in class.
Something that happened once and for all.
Shocked and surprised and nervous as I was.
I put my head on the table.
Did you see me?
Did you know I was sitting there?
Did you see that I was avoiding you?
After so long, we have never been together.
I wanna talk to you.
Svinina, I miss you very very VERY much!
May the Holy Spirit help me in doing the right thing. Comfort me, O Lord.

Cheating

Most common cheat: Cheating in exam.
Did I do that? I don't know. I was offered answers. But I said: Dear, I wanna do myself =)
WWJD is the question and answer for everything!

While I searched for pictures, these are what I found. Hilarious!

What would you feel if you're the wife? Haha xD

Gosh! Can this really happen?!
May be they'll have cramp sooner or later. Hah! =X

What's next?! >.>

1st time

and hopefully the last~

I went to Mega today. Was supposed to meet up with someone but things changed. Last minute, the person couldn't make it. So, forget about it!
Then while I was waiting, I went to F.O.S. and did this for the 1st time in my life!
Trying out clothes, take photos and put them back. LOL =X

I'm so krispy~
>__<

This shirt is S. I wonder am I fat or this shirt is small?

how do you feel?

How do you feel
When someone hates your friend
Your good friend
Your best friend
Your special friend
I feel bad
and sad
why do they have to hate other people for no obvious reason
and call them names?
I know why
'cause they're weirdo =__=
Thank you so much for your wish and blessings
It meant more than you thought
It gave me so much courage today
2 more weeks to go
is your blessing still valid?

LOL

Final year exam...

Final year exam starting tomorrow.
And I'm still online here.
So much not studied and revised yet.
I'm dying.....~

I wanna work!
I'm working soon!
I wanna earn money!
And buy a camera! yay!!!

October 17

I helped out at the Megakids Kindergarten.
On the 17th of October.
At Pei Chai school hall.

And I saw this boy! He's very very VERY cute.
His hair is so stylish and his dad is very young! =D
I wonder what does that supposed to mean? =P

He purposely didn't wanna look at the camera =/

This was another boy. I made him take photo with me after going to the toilet. Lol
I miss my kindy years too. With my lil' crush. Hmmm... =X

I'm sad =(

I wish I didn't see you today.
You've made my day.
I think.
May be we're not friends anymore.
TTFN~

Won't Even Start

What happened
After last summer
When we broke up
In September

I haven't seen you
Feels like a long time
Sometimes it still hurts
But I always get by

I still got a piece of you under my skin
It's always there no matter where I've been

So if I ever see you on the street
I'll pretend that I didn't see
And turn my face
No use in small talk anyways

Because if I look into your eyes
Then I'll have to say goodbye
And that’ll break my heart
So I wont even start
I wont even start

I wish you luck
And I wish it true
That's the best
I can do for you

Cuz you'll probably find love
In someone new
I have to let go
Yeah it's hard to do

So if I run into you with your arm by his side
Just know it'll cut me like a knife

So if I ever see you on the street
I'll pretend that I didn't see
And turn my face
No use in small talk anyways

Because if I look into your eyes
Then I'll have to say goodbye
And that’ll break my heart
So I wont even start
I wont even start

-thanks to Alisson-

SDHWSG!

I went hiking today. Again.
I went alone. Again.
I went in the morning. Again.
I cycled there myself. Again.

Unlucky me. I saw few Aunties today. Gosh they were so talkative. They can talk about everything. Plus, they mentioned something like "the bride is 3 years older than the groom".
1st time I got so offended with them.
In my mind: What's wrong with a older girl marrying a younger guy?
Swt -.-

I walked past them. But they were not slow either. In the end, I gave up. 1st time in my life. I gave up hiking up Bukit Pelindung. I stood there. Too exhausted. Panting hard. My feet urged me to turn around and go down.

Looking those talkative women in front of me. I turned around and started walking down. I felt like I'm defeated. Why didn't I have the strength to carry on?

Was it because I lost someone? Or because I got someone? I think I still miss her. Very much. Which is a bad thing. Sorry, Chien Li. I've disappointed you.

Suddenly God spoke: You shouldn't give up so easily. What have I been teaching you?
I stopped. Yeah, He's right. Why should I give up so easily? Where's that strong and courageous Jasmine?

I turned around and started walking up again. Real slow. Enjoying God's presence. Enjoying Pelindung's nature path. Which I didn't have time to do that usually.






Tut tut tut...


I went back to school to look for my 2nd life. For those who know what's my 2nd life. yeah I lost it and have been looking up and down for it.
That's when I saw that SDHWSG.
And I got scolded for going into the school.
What is wrong with him?!

There's always new things to learn in a new relationship with a new person.

I've known Svinina for 3months and 2 days. I thought I would stop counting days and forget about her. But it seems that I can't unless I have amnesia or some sort. It's not hard for me to notice her in school. Her hair, her height, her back, her skirt. Everything about her is so significant. But, are we still friends?
Well, I don't know. Of course I still wanna stay as friends. Let that moment freeze, and we'll be friends forever.
No. I don't wanna avoid her in school. I wanna approach her and say hi and play along as we used to. But this few days I saw her with her good friend which people thought she's her "girlfriend". Nevermind I guess. I'm not that important anyway. My presence won't make any difference.

NOW IS THE TIME TO SHIFT MY HOPES AND DREAMS and... ATTENTION!!!

Thanks to Svinina, I've grown and learnt more after knowing her. All the torturing and tearful days. I realized that not everyone will reciprocate your love as you sacrifice your love for them. But still, some people will appreciate us!
I'd rather face a flower than suffering so much. Sorry, I'm selfish. I can't afford to put myself in a position that I might get hurt again.

-Svinina: Still friends?-
-Love,Ben'JazZ xD-

Funny facts!

Funny facts. Sometimes really can't believe it's happening~

#1. I've only seen him once in my whole 15 years, 9 months, 14 days, 21 hours of my life and still counting. May be twice for I didn't know it was him in the 1st place.

#2. I've only spoken to him on the phone twice. Plus once 2 years ago but ended up talking to his sister =__=

#3. A flower fell in love with a flower.
Can a guy fall in love with a guy? Hmmm... xD

#4. It wasn't as exciting as I thought it would be. It's still hard to believe that it happened!

Sorry you little boy. [Mua ain't available anymore.]

-Ghee~-
-Ben'JazZ xD-

SDHDFA?!

P/S: SDHDFA stands for Super Duper Hyper Desperate For Attention.
I found something fun to do with last Sunday. And of course I enjoyed it. [very much!]
Partner in DFA-ness : Enwei? Nope. It's Enwei's huge gigantic jacket!
Look who's this? LOL kinda obvious right? xD

Q-ing up at KFC~

Bad lighting. Front view.

Peace V !

If you're curious, yes I wore that walking around the mall. Because my shades are dark enough and people can't see through my shades even though they're standing near.
So people walked pass me giving me that "What's-wrong-with-her" look. Nope It's not embarrassing. I enjoyed the attention. [very much!]
I can see the look on their faces. Soooo funny! Haha xD

Last Saturday night...

How did I spent this year's Mooncake Festival? Something different too!

Lantern and mooncakes!

Alisson & I.
[She's a busy businesswoman that can't leave her phone for awhile.]

This little light of mine. I'm gonna let it shine~

Enwei & Chien Li

Chien Li & Kevin. Look at his face~

Wilfrey!

Light the candle!

This was the "spot".

Haha! It was so boring til this DFA girl thought of doing something challenging. Her partner in crime: Alyson Kok!

"Hello people! Can you see me?!"

And I got scolded after doing this. I actually thought of pretending that I slipped. But I was afraid if I "slip", I couldn't get up. So, I didn't do that...

-More to come~-