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Either Chien Li or Enwei (or both) have mentioned before:  

This thing has a heart that is broken. The broken heart is already there when you brought it back. Just that it was covered.

But now, it's revealed...

So true. Many things are around us.

When it's not a problem, we won't even look at it.

But when it starts arising as something positive/negative,

it's so big that we can't see anything else....

It's time to get a new blog. Should I??

-comment please :P -

Gosh!

Can you actually believe it?!?! I made a kid cry! I'm so children-friendly, being involved in children ministry for a few years and now I made a kid cry. Why? Because he's a kid, not a child. [What's the difference? =__= ]

Enwei's blog was sooooo.... I don't know? Supportive to me? Gagagah

Don't go around telling people I made you cry this and that, you know what you've done even though you think it's right. Spreading stupid rumours about me and making people think that I'm the bad one.

Excuse me, if I am able to make a kid cry, then you should be proud ashamed of yourself because you're just 2 years younger than me.

Grow up~!!! No one is gonna take care of you if you continue to be like a kid, act like a kid and play with the kids.

Sorry if I've offended you but you just have a brain that will never mature. Retarded maybe?

How I wish you won't see this. 

Which you won't will, of course~ ^__~

No...

NO! I DON'T WANT...

that's all I can say... Again after 2 months, you brought up the same excuse to leave me. I told you how I'd be without you, but, you still ask me that...

NO! Without my agreement, you can't do that to me...

You wanna make me happy, but you don't know how much hurt you can cause me even by saying that to me...  You're UNBELIEVABLE! T_________T


Don't give up on me so easily. Don't give up on us so easily... Can you?

I'm I Me Mine Myself...

There's something in my mind that I was always afraid to confess. Sometimes I feel like shouting out loud so that the whole wide world would know what is in my mind. After a second thought, I know I can't. Because the consequences are hard to bear.

I'm Jasmine. So what? I'm DFA [Desperate For Attention]. So what? I always talk very loudly. I like to scream and shout. I like release stress like that. I like to ask a lot. I like to sing in class. I like to laugh out loud. I like to do whatever that I like to do. SO WHAT?!?!

I go for things that I like. I insist on owning things that I want. If hinting is not enough, I'll ask. I'll give up soon if I don't get it. One day, if I stop asking, you can conclude that I don't want you anymore...

I'm tired of making changes in me. I'm tired of tolerating useless complaints. I'm tired of being someone that pleases other people. Who's going to please me???

I'm tired of thinking: If I'm like that, may be he won't like it. So, I better not.

I AM WHO I AM. I don't wanna do make changes in me that I don't look like me anymore, I don't act like me anymore. If you like it, God bless you. If you don't, that's your problem. God bless you more. Take it or leave it. No more stupid useless unnecessary sacrifices... No more...

[Thanks to Jonathan for editing that photo for me. What he wrote gave me the courage to be myself :) ]

Jonathan!!!

Happy birthday, Jonathan!!! 

I know this post is kinda late 'cause of the stupid connection.

It just won't upload this picture!

You said you'll be happy if i edit a nice picture for you. I've already edited this before you told me that. Sorry, I'm still learning, so I hope you'll like it...

Anyway, thanks so much for everything, dude! You're the awesome one!!! xD

P/S: Take more nice photos, teach me how to take nice photos more often, come back more often, let's hang out more often, let me use your camera more often! Hahahah...

There's no turning back...

What already happened, it already happened.

Benjamin:......

.... So many things happened recently that I can't mention everything here. But I felt heartache for her. The last time she got hurt so badly was because of AYe. She took quite some time to "recover", to be like herself again. I was so glad :D

But when she was let loose just for few months, she got hurt again. It was my fault. I didn't look after her properly. I didn't stand in her way when she was about to get hurt...

Now, what can I do? Stop her from getting involved? She won't listen to me. She'd rather get hurt again than being away for long. The least I can do now is to protect her again. From mentally and emotionally hurt.

I will make sure she will think more than twice before deciding on something. Especially whether to do something. I will make her opt out if I see danger ahead. No matter what, I will protect her from being hurt again. Even though I'm not needed..."

Talk To Me

It hurts me more when you're hurt.

From last time (when I grew slightly more mature) until now I've been emphasizing on the  

importance of  

COMMUNICATION!!!

Since it's over, what more can I say?

--Talk to me--

--Don't believe easily what the 3rd party has to say--

--O Lord, rescue me!!! T__T --

Hmmm...?

 It's almost 3 months. Other people have done it doesn't mean I have to do it too right?

Peer pressure sucks... But, I want to know...

:: No, it's not what you think =__= ::

Thinking of you~~ xD

...

I forgot what i wanted to blog about...

... to be continued...

School

School is a disaster. With disasterous teachers and disasterous homeworks!!! Gosh I'm hating school already. Teachers give homeworks like we live to do them. Like we live FOR them only. teachers give homeworks like they're free of charge! Which of course they're not. Waste time waste paper waste money waste oxygen shouting in desperation.

Daddy, I don't wanna go to school. I don't wanna sit for SPM T^T

2-0-1-0

Another year is here. I'm officially form5. Okie maybe not that official yet. I'm scared of SPM already. I don't wanna go back to school.

Didn't blog for quite some time. I was terribly sick. And still sick. Last few days of the year also got sick. How sad... what also cannot eat, cannot go out, cannot do work (yay!)

Gahhh........