Bye Bye 2010, Hello 2011

Aiyor, I haven't been blogging for SOO long. *Blows away dust*


Well, Today is the last day of 2010. *speechless* 
I don't know what to say. This year has been quite tough. SPM and all. Church is bad. He is bad -.-

So I pray for better years to come. Go to anywhere but Kuantan. Future is abit blur~ Though I got the scholarship I have always praed for, but dad says it must be 100% tuition fee waiver. If not, I can't take it. That's just pathetically pathetic. It is God's blessing to even get a scholarship but dad is expecting a full scholarship =[


Well, keep praying and have faith in the Lord. That's all I can do.

Uncle gave a digital camera (DC) and I'm announcing it as mine. Well, it's a very old model but it's better than nothing raite? Raite.

2011 is a year of fulfillment of my dreams, a year where dreams come true. Including getting myself a DSLR with my own pay. Means I earn myself to get a DSLR. Now I got the DC, sounds like God is saying: 'You're not getting your DSLR next year so the DC is a temporary replacement. '

LOL. I hope that's my imagination run wild. God won't say that, raite? raite? raite?


I'm gonna cut my hair later. New hair for a new year. owh yeah! No regrets :DD

Anxiety and frustrations. But this is a chance for me to learn to trust in the Lord more.

Peace! ^_^ V

可是我喜欢他

两个礼拜前

我遇见了他

他对着我

笑了

非常非常灿烂的

微笑

我顿时愣着了

不知道要怎么做

对他微笑吗?

还是掉头就走?

我

脸红了

走吧~

我走来走去

不知道要干吗

他

却一直在注意着我

他叫我了

叫我参加一个义工社团

他说, 要接触明星就要参加

参加就参加咯

我填了表格

把需要的资料都给了

他看到我的名

就问: “你的名是茉莉花吗?

原来你是茉莉花! 原来你是茉莉花!”

我翻了个白眼想:

“真没常识!”

临走前,

他还附加了一个灿烂的微笑

他给我的第一印象

非常好

而且他还蛮好看

晚上

他利用我的资料

传短信给我

“茉莉花! 茉莉花! 茉莉花! 茉莉花…小姐! 要接触明星是不难的”

虽然他乱用我报名的资料

但我一点也不介意

心里还有一丝的欢喜

跟他相处了一段时间

我发现我越来越喜欢他

我间接式问他对我的感觉

他否认了

明明就喜欢

就是不肯认

可是我喜欢他

他的英文

烂到爆

简单的英文

听不明

简单的英文

讲不出

我一生中教过多少个人英文?

竟然喜欢一个不会听不会讲英文的家伙?!

可是我喜欢他

工作的他

过几个小时才会回一封信

天天等到傻了

都一定要等到

他根本就没空理我

可是我喜欢他

认识几天就被伤几次了

常被欺负

因为喜欢,所以在乎

可是我喜欢他

慢慢的

盲目的我发现了

原来我并没有很喜欢他

原来我只是想

想要有人陪

想被爱

想被疼

我接收了我应该放弃他

我跟他“分手”了

虽然不曾发生过

可是

他不舍

他打电话给我

我们谈了差不多一个小时

那时我真的决定了

他,不是我的

可是他喜欢我

他会主动找我

主动约我出去

虽然他不承认

可是他骗不了我

因为,

他喜欢我! ;)

Last 2 days...

Last Saturday (13/11/10) and yesterday (15/11/10) were the last 2 days of my high school life. Saturday was the End of The Year Party and yesterday was just a normal school day but with Pn. Tan See Lee's retirement 'celebration'.

Saturday was fun. Practically the best day of my high school life? May be...
A lot happened this year. Somehow it felt better without the presence of AYe. I was free. Not so self-conscious.
I managed to mend a broken friendship this year. I didn't know what happened but we stopped talking since form3. Well, we talked on Facebook, texted and all but we just don't have the initiative to start talking to each other face to face at school. Urgh~ I hate this -.-

I had another broken friendship this year. We were friends for quite sometime. It happens right. Argument and all. I wouldn't say it's all my fault or all her fault but both of us were at blame.

I tend to be an initiative person most of the time, but at times I get tired with the fact in my brain knowing that: " I have to talk to you first".

So boring. Can't you talk to me first?! =[[[[

For this ex-friend ( I don't count her as my friend anymore), we are not talking. There's no need to talk, neither do I want to talk to her. I don't even wanna hear her voice. Freakishly annoying. I guess it's mainly my fault. I might still hold grudges, which I shouldn't. As a Christian, that's just not right. For a person that was so close to us before, it just seemed a bit too hard.

I pray all the time asking God to help me to forgive her and to love her as Jesus wants us to. But it's not easy. Especially I have to see her in school.. Imagine the happiness I felt whenever she's absent and I'm not ^_^

Worse still, I sit behind her during every exam this year. Including SPM. Sigh. It's okie. I woun't have to hear her voice because we're not supposed to talk. Phew~

Back to happy stuff. The party was just fun! Taking pictures with most of my buddies with a camera that doesn't belong to me (sigh)
And Jie Wen, we were close but again we stopped talking. Much awkwardness but now, we seem to be quite good already! Yay!

Good photography :D

Saw this link on facebook. After reading it, I thought it was really good!
http://thephotoletariat.com/good-photography-is-not-about-the-gear-its-about-the-story/

I wonder whether he's trying to say that iphone is good or just using the ''not-so-real camera'' is good. Don't know what I'm saying? Read that post I linked laaa~
No shame for most of my pictures are taken with my phone. Only. Owh and not to forget: Photoshop xD

So I'm gonna share a few good photographers here and their pictures. well, they all use the 'Real camera' though ._.

This is a shot by Nyen Chin. Weird name. He's a Christian. he told me -.-

Mostly landscape shots in US.

Steve's. His studio's grand opening was just 2 weeks ago :D

Komi. Most beautiful model I have seen.

By Steve too.

Of course, Calvin. 

 Komi again. This is by Eddy Ng.

Michael Chong's. Jonathan's father. 

 i thought he's better in landscape instead of potrait D:

Komi again. By Tiger Lee.

just found this talented guy yesterday. Jeremy Song :D

 Almost forgot =P

Jonathan Chong!!

That's not all but that's all for now.

Untitled.

It had been long. Well, a lot of things happened.
Trial was over. Now having the second 'wave' of trials.
Gonna waste 2 weeks because of that. I heard that SPM is in less than 1 month time.
Crap. I'm scared. T_T

:)

After so long, yes I'm gonna blog again. Just one post. Or may be two. I don't really think anyone's reading it but I'm telling myself that you care ;)

So, the real SPM trials are over and now preparing for Pra-SPM which is the fake trials. Well I don't see the point for it takes up another 2 weeks which means we have 2 weeks less to study. If we're studying >_<

YES I AM studying! xD

No news from the JPJ so I'm not having much hope that the schedule of SPM will be amended. Which means I might not be going for ACTS Teens camp this year. =(((((((


There's one thing that's bothering me a lot this 3 days. I can't even recall what's velocity and momentum. If I have ever known what are they =P

YES I DO know! xD

It's not a 'he' but a 'she' which is weird. People who heard my so-called 'problem' will ask either 'Are you a lesbian?' or 'Is she a lesbian?' 


-.- NOOOOOO!!! Can't girls have super best friends?!?! But she's not my super best friend. I'd kill myself +_+

She's just bothering. I'm so fed-up but I can't give up on her since I made a promise. Stupid!

Get lost laar~ I need to study for SPM xP



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Holidays are ending. Trials are coming. Time is flying.SPM is coming. I'm dying. Chhheeehhhh....




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